anneliesofias

This whole thing with kids and growing up and all that you know… I've never had the feeling "I want a baby" before - but lately I've started to long for that baby tummy! Just imagine having something growing inside of you, crazy! I can't say that I want a baby, cause I'm not sure if I'm ready for it..

 

But it doesn't feel less "wanted" when one of my earliest friends got her first baby girl this weekend! It's surreal imagining one of my friends - a girl my age - having her own kid! But we're closing in on 22 years after all… my mom was 23 when she had me! And she's had her boyfriend for ages, so I guess it's not that surprising after all ^^,

 

And she's not the only one having a baby - one of my former colleagues is having his first baby in a few weeks (or it could be days, I'm not 100% haha!) time as well, it's just crazy imagining people your age having kids. It's a real wakeup call saying that you're growing up and that you're not a toddler anymore!

 

My biggest problem is the daddy issue, I suppose… haha, it's kinda hard having a baby without a father. But I guess my day will come. My prince charming will appear when I least expect it… :) haha, cause my "searching" so far always end up in gay guys, taken guys or guys out of my league… sad bu true, unfortunately!

 

Anyway, I'm more hopeful that he'll show up soon… I'm one day closer to meeting him for every day that passes, that's for sure :D haha, even though it feels completely impossible at times! Sometimes I feel that I'm gonna end up forever alone...